so, i didn't blog yesterday. no mood. was dead tired.
yesterday was my birthday! yeah. so i had grown older by 1 year liao. sian. there is something wrong with me. all these years, i have been looking forward to my very own, once in a year birthday. but this year i went to school feeling scared and nervous. excited, a bit ba. first thing i got was a pitch from Abital. it hurts man! haha. and two big hugs from Abital and Rubez. haha. i feel loved by two of them. then on thursday. when it turn 12 o'clock. i din expect any one to sms me. but weii twinnie, serene msg me to tell me happy birthday. gosh. i was about to cry. so sweet of her. and sis told me that she had slept and she set alarm just to wake up and send this msg to me. i was super touched. that makes my night sweet :) thanks:)
but sis is still the 1st to wish me. haha. she stays with me mah! she shy shy, din't want to sing the song to me. so she record it down i gave it to me. * i still treasure it in my phone * huggies. that night, i was loved...
the next morning, woke up and saw xiu wei's msg. i will be happy, cos in a life time, i met this pig. :))
this birthday was different, many many changes. i wished daddy happy birthday too for the 1st time in the morning. i was happy. i drop on the way, they were about to be late! and walked to school. sis was like asking me why why why. haha. cartoon. so i msg her.:) then in school. Abital, Rubez was like sorry for not getting a present. i was like. oh, never mind. its the thoughts that counts. at least you did wish me :)) i appreciate it. XinJie too. love you guys man!
birthday in school was scary. Abital kept saying i feel sad not recieving anything. tsk. hai. its ok darling. knowing you and being a friend with you makes me happy. it dosen't matter if you gave me anything. :) serious. school was really bored. i was so sian on the stairs. sleepy and tired. i cried. super sian. i can't wait for CG to be over. at least i can meet my sis at TM. haha. so time passed very slowly...
CG is finally over! i went to TM as fast as i can. sis and serene waited for me for like hours. 12+ to 5? sorry. =/ then serene gave me this chocolate. cool. haha. sis bought a a=cnady-machine and loads of chocolate and sweets for me. she spent 20+ on it. i am dying. fat fat liao. haha. that machine is so nice. :) got piggy bank also. so cute. want me to save more $. yeah. i will. save hard and making your birthday the best one:)) then went there with elissa. talk talk talk. with sis and serene too. whee. the serene went home after giving me the present. then off we went to shop. sis leg nearly break. haha.=p then walk walk walk. finally, went to OP and bought shirt. cool. nice nice. i choose. of course la. the ppl there are nice too :)
then went to grab a bite and walk somemore. went to "MoNtIp" to buy things. wanted to buy hairbands... lol. then took a bus back. crowded. a guy sat beside me. squeeze in./ shit. talk on the phone. I CAN'T SLEEP! tsk tsk.
went home, online, watch tv, uncle came over, and watch more tv and bath loh! whee. then the birthday cake arrived! feel loved, all sadness fade away bringing joy to me... i love you daddy, mummy , ruii and my beloved best friend and sis. weii:) then the cake was so nice but i brush teeth le so i din eat. was nice. 60+ cake. whao... then present time. sis hold the plastic bag from op and brought it to the hall. i thought she was lame wanting to give me again. oh well. gave dad the present. and for mine. sis gave me all the present and on top of that, a wallet appear. so it was bought when i was changing she ask the person to hand it to her so fast that i din notice. i was so touched and happy. * sis told me if i cry on my birthday then ______ oh. is it true. you din tell me earlier. =./* argh~!@#$^%. then wanted to wait till 12 then slp at least wait for my day to be over but i ended up sleeping with my specs on! haha... newae, thanks a lot. i love you! muackies. sisters and family forever! wo men wan sui!

so for today. woke up late todat. then xiu wei called ask me if i at home. weird. then i saw the msg. slow ar me! the at abt duno what time sis brought me down. i was scared. then xiu wei gave me the present and this big big card. came with steph, her bf?. haha. i din noe. shocked! nvm. the the card was done by pris, xiu wei and her mummy. was touched. i din noe what to do. really. then xiu wei ask me to go down town to celebrate with them for jollene. i din want. no reason. neay, mum will be going to grandma house, 3, 4+. i go there also nothing to do. so extra. so forget it. i rather saty at home. after all there is nothing i can do what. haha. =)
then at home, i called xiu wei's home to thank auntie. i guess her mum wrote the chinese words! haha. pro huh>? hehe. then talk for i 2 mins then bye bye. thanks ppl. i appreciate it. special thanks to weii! haha =))
xiu wei: the present you gave is really nice. i will keep it and treasure it de! thanks:))

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so. i am just back from school! haha. had BMS today. shit. i was late the other time so that Mr Ong gave me 2 BMS. hai. slept with my books on the table. how wonderful! *clap hand!* haha. then end early cos we are quiet the the Mr Willson let us off at 4 like tt! haha.
today was ok for me la. Lit that time, Agnes and Zheng Yi was singing and laughing away la. but they did their work. haha. then they were saying that they sang till off tune, etc etc... haha. only today i know that i am going to act as the grand high witch! shit la! i was kind of pissed off but not really. wonder how should i say it?>>> ok so, its like i din even know what was really going happen all that and its like they din even ask if i want to be or not. i din want. just because i am tall? then i would rather just be 1mm. tts all. being tall is not at all enjoyable! gosh! Agnes is also tall what. argh. my blood is so going to burst! ~!@#$^%&*()_+`-= i don't know if i can make it. i hate to act. afraid that if i don't act well then i will and will sure pull down the whole group marks. and i am not sure if i can make it or not. i am not that kind of person who can act well!@ Xin Yan say they will help. how? argh. wonder why i am so nervous now!?! hmmmmmmmmm. guess i will just act, just treat it as it is for fun bah! =0)
so, it seems that quite a lot of ppl are pissed or what so ever. somehow i sense it. but might not be true. haha. =.-''/ wonder why>
vivien is sick. omg! it seems to be the latest IN! haha. both sis just recovered then now vivien. rest well ok? must drink loads of water. you have flu right? see, i clever. haha. *giggles* newae, rest well! =))

so. another boring day! sian. so i am back blogging.
sis is sick again. talking to kel on msn about that time... haha. tts so funny recaping what had happen the other time! sian. another heart breaking> haha. so pai seh sia. but tt is so funny. having jelly legs and just fall dwn on the floor. SHIT so funny sia!
house downstairs is so cool. music playing. shit. have it everyday. i will love to stay at home 24/7! haha. I WANT TO JOIN :_) hehe.
so... these days are sooooo boring. sis dun sick on weekdays sick on weekends then don't go out. here pain there pain. huh! sian sia. tmr got to go to sch. can't stay up toooo late. watch tv all that. neway, does that make a difference? hehe./ :p
playing " saying that i love you>>> " hehe. cool huh? nice nice to hear!
this morning woke up late. ytd sleep so much, * thanks to sis pig pig * then i today still wake up sooo late. shit.
Gayle out. shit. she is nice la. she is one that i support la! hai. gawd!
last night never watch that show la. hai. mummy never ask ma! so i decided to slp la! hai. SLEEP AGAIN. argh. i hate to slp. argh argh argh! lol.
sooooo, mummy was back on MON. saw her at the juction after walking with jia qi, poh ling , vivien and siti to white sands. saw her carrying so much so i just help w/out saying anything. mummy was shock i guess. hehe. nice.,// talking talking on the way home. mummy is fun. i love you man! WELCOME home. have been missing you so much. I SIMPLY LOVE MY FAMILY. YOU PEOPLE ROCKS!!! muackies... =)) tts all ppl. have a nice day!

so. today was as per normal.
went to school. come home. eat. bath. sleep. com!
so...
yesterday was so fun. weii and me create a family blog. weii blog one super long one and i just blog one normal length entry! sounds cool huh? mummy say she will write an entry very soon. but might not be this week. she doesn't seem to be free. =o
then. i feel loved. not by _______ but by my family. PARENTS! omg. i truly love them sooooooo much. more than how much they love me! haha.
saw _______, did not have much reaction. it is just the matter of time. if it is true, i would just need to have more time to get over this issue! @ ! i know weii will support me dez. right? haha. you encourage me de loh! haha. for that, thank you! i love you too!

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sian tmr got cg! SIAN! SIAN! SIAN! =)) but there is something i kind of look forward to! but will it happen. i wonder...

haha. back blogging. so, hmm, what now. i also don't know. =.-
anyway, yesterday was so fun, although afternoon had to stay at home without weii.=)) then at night went to eat steam boat. haha. very ex la but i think is worth, very very nice. the fish especially. yummy yummy! haha.
went later to fetch sis home cos she go out ma. haha. then actually want to fetch serene home de. but she shy shy ma. hehe. =.= so meet sis at a bus stop then home we go. reached home at 11+ liao. so so so late. bath. watch tv, lie on the bed and think and think and think until i sleep. BUT I AM NOT AT ALL SLEEPY. haha. i have magical powers! haha. =.-
so today had arrived. haha. so, i will just let it be and passed! >>> bb>>>

listening to High School Musical , Breaking Free. hmmmmmmmm, very very nice song. espeacially sang by this two couple. haha. ~lalalalalalalalala~

sis want to help me create frenster because i keep using her frenster to see my darlings pic pic. hrumpf! don't let me see jiu say la. still wan pretend want to HELP me! chey. haha. jkjk. still thinking. but she this type of people so KPO de. ahah. she is just beside me and she type " she rawks " haha. ya la ya la. but you pitch me. so... pui pui pui! hahahahahahahahahaha. so i guess i will go and create one later or another day... haha. go create le! see ya tmr! * argh another week of SCHHOL *
dunwantoseeyou.butiwant.=.= whatamisaying???=))

so. I am back blogging again. simply because no one is home. only auntie and me? mummy, daddy and my two sisters all out! shit. i am at home now. staring into space. mummy wants me to study. switch on the com and place my books beside me but i just can't study at all. argh. that is so frustrating man! eew. so i should just blog to keep me entertained. hehe. just read some blogs but only yan yee's blog is updated! simply because i just visited them yesterday? haha. lol. no one is online. only joyce and edwin. so sian. nothing to do. later need to buy food for auntie. lazy. hai.

i am still wondering. it all does not seem to help me much. only all the oh... eh and etc etc. it is all those things. hmmmmmmmmm... it is obvious that everyone is having problems but somehow it is all under 1 topic >>> i guess.
read yan yee blog and here is what i have to say! that song on your blog is sooooo nice. i have been hearing it since i turn on the com! still listening. hehe. addicted by it liaoz. * winks *
i think it is going to be your big day ___. i don't know what to do or even what to say. i don't want all these anymore it seems to hurt me more if i keep on making the first move. i don't understand. :',c
how i wish that feeling will soon fade away. but i se bu de just let it go like that. sob sob.
***<<< i "can't" see myself get over you, i "can't" see myself again. >>>*** hehe. don't really know the words but some i change but it seems to be true.but no matter what. follow your heart no matter what you do. but for my case ... hai. tsk tsk. =o)

so cg today was ok. learned new song. fun lar but also quite sian as usual! haha. xiu wei find me to give me the letter. thanks loads!
so when i came dwn i saw them. i was like whao. haha. waited for poh ling. was happy to wait today! *winks* we were busily singing " if you are happy and you know..." that song. i was real happy for that moment. only for that moment. but it seriously din last long. i heard it. and was wondering real real long till i am home. is it true. all that you say is it true. i want to noe the truth so that i won't be so naive to believe what i really believe. i don't noe what i am thinking now. i seriously don't know. i want to share it out but it does not work at all. ppl, everyone is having problems. and i do care. but what else can i do? i can't even sort things out. i can't i can't and it will be a fact. i don't want all these to happen. how i wish i wasn't there. it really hurt to hear that but i really wana know the truth but maybe the truth will be more hurtfull. so. shd i find it out? maybe no. i don't be so nosy jiu ok liao. hai. whats on earth going on? i wonder why. oh and maybe its the end. i wonder if i should still believe it anot. no one will ever have the ans only "us". hehe. =p
whatever it is...<<<>>>
xiu wei. thanks just now for lending ur ear to me. haha. feel soooo much better after the ***. haha. love you. will reply the letter asap de! muackiez! =))))))))))
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weii, can faster come home. i got soooooo much to say to you? enjoyed today?

hai. something wrong with my com ytd and the day before. lol. can't post my blog entry. arghh! just reach home. went white sands with xiu wei then walking back to school then off again we go to white sands to find steph. ><''' so din study today loh! haha. saw liang kai and another one. forgot his name! bish bish! lol. he sees me as if i grow another head. lol. there's nothing to say. just hi and bye. lol.
so. i went for the maths thingy. hmmmmmmmm. the teacher teaching was cool and funny. like her! haha. then you walk pass the class. guess you saw me. hehe. but again. no reaction. not even a smile. lol. haha. anyway. smsing is good enough i guess. at least we crap so much. oh. mainly me myself? wahaha. so... i duno what to do. i duno what i am feeling right now. having mixed feelings? nah. dun think so. but yeah. i am confused now! hehe. i dare nnot say a word. =P hai...

people do change. they really do. some change for the good and some change for the worst. and sad to say some have different personality. don't worry. none i am refering to. they act in different ways in front of different people and tt is seriously something wrong! haha. maybe this is all facts ba. haha.
so life is still the same. everyone plans to work hard and go to their dream class! yeah darlings... study hard and sure can go de. jia you ok? yan yee. just strike for e1/e2 la. but if you dun like science then its up to you. no point studyng a subject you not interested in bur it is the best la! so think over again and study hard huh? okok. xiu wei. i not sure if tmr i want study anot. you see how then tell me before tonight huh? then i see? yeah. pigpig! muackies! to you!
haha. been online soooooo long and i am still not done. hai. so gotta end here le ba. ok. see ya tmr! =))))))))))))))))))))))))

so. today is Xiu wei's 14th birthday. whee>! So... Happy Birthday darling! haha. hope you like that piggy ok? haha.
so. went to simei studio there to practice dong. lol. reached there late. zhi wei, yong jia and ying xuan was waiting there for me. lol. ying xuan called me in the morning when i'm not up yet to tell me the time then kept persuading me to go1 argh! then wen i am walking towards the mrt station, she called me and said the time had changed! omg! my blood vessel nearly burst. so i walked home and called xiu wei. haha. there we talk >>> for about a few minutes then she need to change liao. so bye bye. hey darling, sorry for keep pressing the wrong button. din mean it. haha.
then there the two retared seniors just keep laughing. lol. can't help it. they mental case mah! haha. then practice, eat lunch then practice for a few minutes then REST! play the x-box then talk. hmmmmm. was kinda fun but was tiring.
rush home tyo get my piggy's present then ran to rimes house downstairs. haha. there they are. haha. afraid of getting lost. lol. how could it be huh? hehe. seat with steph. whee. cake on xiu wei face. omg. she is just sooooooo pretty at tt point of time. * oh, i am straight! * haha. another round of cake? haha. jkjk. so guess we had fun? haha. went white sands later. haha. reached home at about 7 ++ coming 8. lol. was out the whole day. cool. fun. lol. haha. will do tt again. whee. opps . haha. newae, just another time...

XIU WEI!!!!! >>>
happy birthday to you. =DDDDDDDDDDDDD

misstookhiimashiim.lol.happyfornothing=.='1/ haha. - T C -

hmmmmm. so i am back blogging. yeah. cool. holiday tmr. the moe exel feast. whee. but the senior say must go simei to practice. hrumph. heard from ying xuan that it is at night till abt 12 last friday1 hai. so late. why can't it be earlier? sian! -^-
newae, tmr yan yee got to go back to sch for FMC. whao. cool huh? wanna go too. haha. lol. so. can wake up late tmr again? yes! yeah!!!
so. its time to work out. i must at least lose 1 or 2 kg1 whee. guess its ok1 go jogging downstairs? hmmmmmmm. can consider. talking to yan yee now on msn. haha.
so. was nearly late for school today again. so i ran all the way from the place dad drop me. haha. was sweating like no one's business can? haha.
Pe was so bored. sit down and crap. syabiqah said poh ling is the "sexyest" person in the level. wahahahaha. laugh till i drop. but anyway, she is tall and bamboo la. opps. eveil. haha. yeah. poh ling is ok. she is tall and hert legs are real long ong long. * longer than xiu wei can liao* haha. nonononono. jkjk oni.
so xiu wei admit she can't live without me huh? yeah. i win. i finalli got you to admit. can't lie to yourself ok? hehee. lol. teah. piggy will nvr live without monkey right>?see i told you. haha . :p
oh.... forgot.
marrisa, thanks for waiting for me every time. appreciate it sooooo much. muackies.
haha. yeah . then wai kit say he nvr contribute enuf to the class. omg, was like whao! touched? yeah, maybe.

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haha. guess what. i just post an empty post and now i am editing it. whao! lol.
so here it goes...
sis planned to have a blog ... an unknown blog that no one will know about it i guess. i was thinking now. but she will kill me. and if i go and create another one, this current blog will not be updated at all. so. haha. i would rather stick on to my own beautiful blog. haha.
both sisters of mine would be cutting their hair today. was wondering if i should cut too.??? what if it appear to be HORRIBLE. it seems to be a fashion for people to cut their hair. argh.
haven finish homework yet. i am going to die. shit. time flies. now i gotta rush rush rush to finish all of them. gosh. hate it. tommorrow gotta go to sch. shit. lazy man. must wake up early so i won't be late. gosh. ok. tts all. bb+))

my eyes hurt man! argh. since yesterday. today woke up was like... " am i going blind? " haha. lol.
hmmmmm. daddy had a talk with me testerday afternoon when he came home. somehow i just cried for a while. then it goes on. etc>>> find it meaningful. was like... somehow i feel thye love daddy had for me. i was so sorry mummy. i talk back to you but what i said i seriously don't mean it. i simply love my family very very much.=]]
yesterday, grandma came to our house instead of us going to her house. lol. mummy was so busy so cannot go. then sis went out to celebrate serene birthday. so here it goes.>>>
Serene, happy birthday! haha. i din't know when i sent the msg sis haven give it to you. sry sry sry. did i somehow ruin it? newae, happy birthday, yeah? haha. =))
then daddy fetch grandma home, mummy went to buy some food for her and for us. lol.
then about 9+ like that. off we go to eat dinner. went quality hotel eat buffet. didn't really eat much. not much food there to eat. haha. i am so fussy lar! hehe. lol.
so >> studying wasn't effective but i still did my studying but i guess not as much as you guys ba.. haha. will try very very hard de.
was it on fri? daniel ong, 98.7 DJ came to our school. was cool huh? he was so friendly. rock on man. hmmm. blog on thur but i go press Esc then there it goes... bye bye...
haha.

i was thinking. what do people mean by important things, and what if people just make empty promises. hmmmmmm. * hey. no need think who is that cos i was just thinking about these lately. lol... *
Happy Youth Day! ppl... love you man! muackies.